have been a few weeks thinking wat happen to my "relationship".... is kinda settle now... feeling a lil better & relieved... but is FUKING HURT inside....... i know the reason why is he treating me so weird/different nowadays , i know watever i was thinking will happen between us & wat he was thinking abt was totally correct... tis SUCK lyk hell!!! my wish came doesnt come true & it turned the other way... it is fuking sh*t..... really stupid to love a guy who doesnt love me back... and betrayed/play/used me!!! WAT THE FUK is his problem!!!!! why must he cpl wit me juz to get close to the girl he like????? WTF?!?!?!!?? do he have feelings anot??? or he's juz immatured??????? how do he feel when tis happen to him????? worst than i do???? nvr met a guy who used me juz bcoz he wan to get close to the gf's best fren....=.=''' if he don love me , y did he wan to cpl bak wit me in the 1st place....?! =.=' y is he saying "i love u" to me ??? did he really loved me before???? saying u appreciate me dam alot & don mean it???? tat's stewpid.... ure not honest to me! promised me tat u will tell me anything... saying u wont leave me .... , u will appreciate me ... , i love u , ... etc etc................ and u dun mean it??? tat's fuking hurt!!!!!!!!!! u noe???? do u actually know how i really feel ??? do u know how deep it hurts to me?!??!??!?!? i love u so dearly.... but u don .... saying u love me & don mean it.. dis is fuking STUPID.... sry to say tat ... well, i had tis feelings for a long time... i know tis will happen.. as most ppl said so.... but i dun listen & dun believe to wat i feel/ wat my feelings tell me.. end up hurting myself agn..... tat's so STUPID ! u hurt me so badly.... but i still love u so much.. i duno y.. forgive & forget ..... and hurting me so many times.... don u feel guilty? don u feel anything???? i know u dun love me anymore.... u wouldnt care how i feel anymore.... but still a human... yeah, im emo...... so wat? i have feelings too!!! human have feelings!!!!!!! im not dead!!!! as u know tat...... i doesnt wan to lost a friend.... i doesnt wan to hate my fren.... since she did nth wrong.... i doesnt wan tis to spoil my frendship.... Dear fren....(u know who u r), im sry.... i dun mean to get angry at u or anything.... is juz how i feel at times..... takes time to cure it.... hope tis dont spoil our frenship... but thx for telling me wat happen ... i feel much better than knowing nth.... & start guessing abt it........ take care..... ~kien~ :: i cry myself to sleep every night.. knowing tat u still love her more than you will ever love me..... :: :: wouldnt it suck big time if you fall for some1 and he doesnt love u bak? and all u can do is whisper...i love u but i wish i never learned to... :: :: if you love me lyk you told me .. pls be careful wit my heart.... you can take it juz dun break it or my world will fall apart... :::: life is too precious to worry about stupid shit....so have fun , get drunk , fall in love, say wat u wanna say and do wat u wan to do... regret nothing ... and don let the people who dont matter bring u down..!!! :: i think we were nvr meant to be together...... u break ur promises.....u betrayed me....u used me....u play wit my heart....u hurt me so badly agn & agn...u lie to me abt evrything...Dear K**** J**,im sry for wat ive done wrong..... forgive me..... i will rmb u..... how u treat me b4....i will rmb how much u hurt me...... thx for the sweet memories together, thx for the happiness & sadness u gave me....thx for letting me know..... how weak i am....thx for letting me know... wat love is.... , how much it hurts when getting hurt....thx for letting me know... how to appreciate one person well.... now... ure free.... nothing to think abt anymore...nothing is so complicated to think abt....... ...hmmm...sry to say.... u can NEVER get her.... u know who i mean... so... good luck finding a better gf than me and good luck finding some1 love u more than i do.... take care...~"love" u always~...~kien~*not worth to die for some1 who u mean nth to him.....*not worth u cry for some1 who doesnt care anymore...* not worth to love some1 who don love u ....* nvr say i love u if u don mean it....* nvr hurt a girl who love u so dearly....without him.... i still can live...im still a happy person...nth to worry abt , nth will hurt me so bad..... learned to b stronger ..... & how to appreciate ..... =)don worry ,be happy~! take care... lots of love....~KIEN~

have been a few weeks thinking wat happen to my "relationship"....

is kinda settle now...

feeling a lil better & relieved... but is FUKING HURT inside.......



i know the reason why is he treating me so weird/different nowadays ,


i know watever i was thinking will happen between us &


wat he was thinking abt was totally correct...


tis SUCK lyk hell!!!


my wish came doesnt come true & it turned the other way...

it is fuking sh*t.....

really stupid to love a guy who doesnt love me back...

and betrayed/play/used me!!!




WAT THE FUK is his problem!!!!!

why must he cpl wit me juz to get close to the girl he like?????

WTF?!?!?!!??

do he have feelings anot??? or he's juz immatured???????


how do he feel when tis happen to him?????

worst than i do????

nvr met a guy who used me juz bcoz he wan to get close to the gf's best fren....=.='''


if he don love me ,

y did he wan to cpl bak wit me in the 1st place....?! =.='

y is he saying "i love u" to me ???

did he really loved me before????

saying u appreciate me dam alot & don mean it????


tat's stewpid....

ure not honest to me!

promised me tat u will tell me anything...

saying u wont leave me .... ,

u will appreciate me ... , i love u , ... etc etc................

and u dun mean it???

tat's fuking hurt!!!!!!!!!! u noe????

do u actually know how i really feel ???

do u know how deep it hurts to me?!??!??!?!?



i love u so dearly....

but u don ....

saying u love me & don mean it..

dis is fuking STUPID....

sry to say tat ...




well,

i had tis feelings for a long time...

i know tis will happen..

as most ppl said so....

but i dun listen & dun believe to wat i feel/ wat my feelings tell me..

end up hurting myself agn.....


tat's so STUPID !


u hurt me so badly....

but i still love u so much..

i duno y..

forgive & forget .....

and hurting me so many times....

don u feel guilty?

don u feel anything????

i know u dun love me anymore....

u wouldnt care how i feel anymore....

but still a human...

yeah, im emo......

so wat? i have feelings too!!!

human have feelings!!!!!!!

im not dead!!!!

as u know tat......


i doesnt wan to lost a friend....

i doesnt wan to hate my fren....
since she did nth wrong....

i doesnt wan tis to spoil my frendship....



Dear fren....(u know who u r),

im sry....

i dun mean to get angry at u or anything....

is juz how i feel at times.....

takes time to cure it....

hope tis dont spoil our frenship...

but thx for telling me wat happen ...

i feel much better than knowing nth....
& start guessing abt it........

take care.....


~kien~





:: i cry myself to sleep every night.. knowing tat u still love her more than you will ever love me..... ::


:: wouldnt it suck big time if you fall for some1 and he doesnt love u bak? and all u can do is whisper...i love u but i wish i never learned to... ::

:: if you love me lyk you told me .. pls be careful wit my heart.... you can take it juz dun break it or my world will fall apart... ::

:: life is too precious to worry about stupid shit....so have fun , get drunk , fall in love, say wat u wanna say and do wat u wan to do... regret nothing ... and don let the people who dont matter bring u down..!!! ::

i think we were nvr meant to be together......

u break ur promises.....

u betrayed me....

u used me....

u play wit my heart....

u hurt me so badly agn & agn...

u lie to me abt evrything...

Dear K**** J**,

im sry for wat ive done wrong..... forgive me.....

i will rmb u..... how u treat me b4....

i will rmb how much u hurt me......

thx for the sweet memories together,

thx for the happiness & sadness u gave me....

thx for letting me know..... how weak i am....

thx for letting me know... wat love is.... , how much it hurts when getting hurt....

thx for letting me know... how to appreciate one person well....

now... ure free.... nothing to think abt anymore...

nothing is so complicated to think abt.......

...hmmm...sry to say.... u can NEVER get her....

u know who i mean...

so... good luck finding a better gf than me and

good luck finding some1 love u more than i do....

take care...~

"love" u always~...

~kien~

*not worth to die for some1 who u mean nth to him.....

*not worth u cry for some1 who doesnt care anymore...

* not worth to love some1 who don love u ....

* nvr say i love u if u don mean it....

* nvr hurt a girl who love u so dearly....

without him.... i still can live...

im still a happy person...

nth to worry abt , nth will hurt me so bad.....

learned to b stronger ..... & how to appreciate ..... =)

don worry ,be happy~!

take care...

lots of love....

~KIEN~